I have a problem.

I am addicted to sweets. Seriously. I have been trying to diet while Ryan's gone (I'd like to get down to pre-Ryan weight...which means I need to lose 20 pounds). Have you ever been without for so long you start to smell things? I dream about cupcakes. and Chik Fil A chicken biscuits but that's another post in itself :). At the moment I reallllllllllllly realllllllllllly want carrot cake. I don't know why, it's not even my favorite. I think it's the cream cheese frosting that's sucking me in. Anyways I can smell frosting. I know that makes me sound like a nut case. If I was really crazy, (and really skinny) I'd just go buy a can of cream cheese frosting and call it a day.
I suppose I will settle for some gluten free cookies. I just have to order them. A few months ago, I bought this and I can't believe I haven't already used it. After looking at the shipping estimates, they won't be here until WEDNESDAY. I don't know if I can wait that long haha! I am having a serious sweet craving. I found a recipe for brownies, if you want it click here. 105 calories and 2 grams of fat sold me. I'll let you know how it goes, I'm off to the grocery store before it closes!

My favorite Qoutes

These are some of my favorite qoutes. I say some because the list is constantly growing. There are a lot of love qoutes because I think about Ryan a lot since he's not here.
"sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn't mean you love them any less. Sometimes it means you love them more." -The Last Song

"Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will." I don't know who said this one.

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected." -Nicholas Sparks

"We were given two hands to hold, two legs to walk, two eyes to see and two ears to listen. but why only one heart? because the other one was given to someone else for us to find." unknown

"If I had a flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk forever in my garden." -Claudia Ghandi

"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies." Aristotle

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."
Helen Keller

"It's hard to fall asleep when you're in love because reality is better than your dreams."
Dr. Seuss

"One shoe can change your life."
Cinderella

"I'm no model lady. A model's just an imitation of the real thing."
Mae West

"If ignorance is bliss, why aren't more people happy?"
Thomas Jefferson

"The difference between genius and stupidity is: genius has it's limits." Albert Einstein

"To succeed in life you need three things:A wishbone, a backbone and a funny-bone."
Reba McEntire

And my All time favorite qoute is from When Harry Met Sally

"When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."

What is your favorite qoute?



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I love Mike and Molly!

Mike and Molly is a TV show that comes on Monday nights on CBS. If you haven't watched it, you should. Mike is a policeman, and Molly is a teacher. They started dating on the pilot episode.
On last night's episode, they were eating dinner at Mike's mom's house and her boyfriend brought up marriage.
This is what Mike's best friend had to say on the subject:

"Once somebody drops the "M" bomb, it changes everything. It never goes away. Its like trying to get dog crap out of a tennis shoe. You can hose it down, take an old tooth brush to it. Don't matter that shoe ain't never gonna smell right."
This show is just so funny. And it's so true! Haha! Ever since we talked about getting married its all I think about. I am way to OCD for this waiting game. Maybe God is trying to teach me patience.
When Ryan gets home I'm making engagement chicken. Google it. It's been proven to work. I'll let you know how it turns out.

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Tastebuds

Have you ever wondered where you get your specific tastes from? I wouldn't consider myself a picky eater. I like most things, but there are definitely foods that I do NOT like.
Since meeting Ryan I have tried more new foods than I ever have.

Today, when making myself a hot dog ( ok I was pretending it was a hot dog, but really it was a turkey sausage in disguise with about a 1/4 of the calories) I was trying to decide what to put on it. I have a hard time eating meat without some kind of sauce or dressing.
If you had asked me 2 years ago what I like on my hot dog, I would have answered mayo and ketchup.
What did I put on my hot dog today? As I opened my refrigerator, there it was...my taste buds were already salivating at the sight.
Relish. In my pre-Ryan days, I was disgusted at the sight of relish. And sauerkraut. They have such a distinctly sharp almost spicy taste. Now I can't get enough of either. Weird??!?! Is it true you adapt to people you live with? Ryan loves food. All of it. He eats everything from hot dogs smothered in sauerkraut to foie gras.
He has opened my taste buds to things I never thought I'd like and turned me on to foods I used to hate!


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Baking for Gigi

When I'm sad, I like to bake. And/or shop. Neither of which are good for me, my wallet or my waist. So I have found a new outlet! Baking for Gigi, my dog. :)
I know that sounds nutty, but I'm not tempted to eat it. And it fulfills my incessant need to bake something.
Today I made Tuna Triangles, here's the finished product.





And here is my over eager taste tester :)






The verdict is....she loves them! Not that I was worried, the little tubba wubba will eat anything.

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Ryan sent me a package!

So earlier I was outside walking the dog, and the mailman drove past and waved on his way to the mailboxes. I left to go to the grocery store, came back to mail on my porch and one of those little pink papers. You know the kind- it nonchalantly says sorry we missed you! You can pick up your package tomorrow after 9 am. It said the package was from Ryan, and apparently when it goes thru customs, someone has to sign for it. I was really bummed, because I've been waiting for that package for almost 6 weeks! 4 weeks of Ryan procrastinating + 1.5 weeks actually in the mail :)
So I started cleaning-what I usually do when I'm upset, and a few hours later my doorbell rang. Insert psychotic dog here. Who was at my door? None other than the best mailman EVER!!!!!  He came back after delivering the rest of his route, just to see if I was home and try to deliver that package! Yeah, he'll be getting something extra in his Christmas card this year.

Anyways, Ryan sent me some chocolates from italy,  which of course were a little soft. I stuck those in the fridge for later :) He also sent a fedora, probably just to irk me-he has one already and I hate it; a t-shirt with his cologne (which I have now sniffed so much I'm surprised I'm not high!), an SD card with videos and pictures, and a belly dancer costume. Yes you read that right. As in the hand made beaded things you can find in Turkey. I'm not sure who he thinks will be wearing that?!?!? But here it is...

This just made my whole month. Now I'm going to go back to sniffing my t-shirt :)

I'm a military girlfriend

I saw this online today and thought it applies pretty well. Except for the crying myself to sleep-never done that.


I Am a Military Girlfriend.....

I am a military girlfriend.I hold no formal recognition with the powers that be.I am at the bottom of the chain. I hold no Military ID card; I am not a "dependent" or parent.The man i love may face unspeakable dangers, and I am at the mercy of those who possess this recognition for news.I understand this and accept this.

I am a military girlfriend.I have promised to be here for him upon his return, no matter how long he is away. People may say I am insane for making such a commitment with no quarentees, but i hold onto our promises and have faith that he will come home safe to me. I know full well that my love for him fuels him in the worst of times.

I am a military girlfriend.There is no ring on my finger to symbolize our commitment, though I love him no less forit. I hope every day that he will be able to call because a simple 30-second phone call can bring the greatest spectrum of emotions...smiling with tears in my eyes from so much joy and pain. My relationship is based on brief communication where "I love you and I'm okay" speaks more than volumes and gives me the strength to keep going.

I am a military girlfriend. I take no moment spent together for granted.I hold onto every touch, caress, kiss, and every word.I have memroized the feel of his skin, his smell, the sound of his voice,and I play it over and over in my head so that I will not forget. I cry myself to sleep some nights because missing him hurts so badly, but wake up the next morning, brush myself off, and start a new day.

I am a military girlfriend.The events of the next serveral months hold my life, my love, and my future in the balance.When you watch the news reports, you may turn away and go about your business relatively unaffected.When I watch the news,stories of the war, I do not see nameless soldiers a half a world away.I see individuals who will be forever changed by the way news of everyday casualties causes me physical pain and deep sadness

I am a military girlfriend,not a spouse or family member.When you say your prayers for the wives,mothers,and fathers, please dont forget about me too.